Young Buddhist Camp 2009

ok, energy replenished.

hmm, i din want to post immediately cuz i din want my thoughts to be blurred by excitement when i wrote my blog. besides, i still had to tie up some ybc stuff (like trying to save all the photos so i can zip the folder and let u all download for your convenience).

it was a great camp and i believe everyone had fun and loads of it too.

but for myself, somehow, i felt a kind of emptiness within. i dunno how to say. prob is it cause i'm selfish? self centred? just feeling a little lonely.

from this camp, i thought about quite alot of stuff. i thought about the my personality, actions, character etc. a full reflection on myself. i'm beginning to think if the way i've been doing things is right. i begin to doubt my character. why i begin to think of all these things? i dunno. it just came up.

leaders have done a great job, participants were enthusiastic but i still feel that something is missing. anw, i dun think i'll be vice chair for camp next yr again. prob just a facil.

also, dunno if i have the time to plan for camp too. but we'll see how ba.

dunno why but i feel so tired. tired of what? i also not sure. my brain is having a tough time trying to sort out all my confused feelings within. why i feel lonely? i also dunno. but after all these feelings, it made me realize a little more abt myself.

well, the rest of this blog entry will be continued in my diary cuz its getting really personal. some thoughts about the camp i will also not write here cuz i dun want to offend anyone either.

anw, dun care much about this post la. just some random feelings that i get now. i dun even noe if this post makes sense.

but well, glad everyone enjoyed the camp and despite all, there were really fun and enjoyable moments that i will keep with me through my journey in life.